Toni Braxton says she believes God gave her 11-year old son autism to punish her for getting an abortion.
The singer dropped the bombshell in her new memoir Unbreak My Heart, where she revealed that she had an abortion in 2001. But the guilt – compounded by the fact that she came from a deeply religious family – made her to conclude that God will one day punish her for taking a life.
I was suddenly faced with a choice I’d never thought I’d have to make. Amid my major misgivings about abortion, I eventually made the gut-wrenching decision… In my heart, I believed I had taken a life — an action that I thought God might one day punish me for. … My initial rage was quickly followed by another strong emotion: guilt. I knew I’d taken a life… I believed God’s payback was to give my son autism.
Even though she was taking anti-acne drug Accutane – known for its harmful effects on fetuses – at that time, she reveals that she would have aborted the baby anyway.
After the abortion, Braxton had to endure seeing her parents get divorced and several years later she split from her husband Keri Lewis.
Later in an interview with People, she modified what she wrote on the memoir about her son’s autism, explaining, ‘I thought I was being punished for having an abortion. But I realized there is nothing wrong with my baby. He just learns differently.’